Why do I still carry the deals we should have caught?

You find what others miss. That is real. And when something still slips past, you replay it alone — at night, in silence, as if you were the only wall between the team and disaster. But no one gave you that job. The team trusts your eye because it is sharp, not because it is infinite. When you make yourself the last line of defense, you stop being one careful reviewer among several and start being a man alone with an impossible task. That is not humility. That is a quiet kind of pride. The fix is not to look harder. You already look hard enough. The fix is to build a process that does not rest on one person's eyes, and to judge your own work by the pattern, not the single miss.