Why do sudden and child losses still undo me?

You handle most grief now. You sit with families, stay steady, do the work well. Then a sudden death comes, or a child, and something in you breaks that doesn't break for the others. You start to wonder if you're still cut out for this. Stop. A mind that stays perfectly calm at a child's death is not a mind to envy. Your reaction is not weakness. It is you, still seeing clearly what the rest of the job has taught you to absorb. But a reaction you carry alone gets heavier, not lighter. If these cases are stacking up and you're white-knuckling through them by yourself, that's a weight for people around you to share — and sometimes for support outside your team, not just this page, to help you carry.