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Hundreds of lives move through my attention every shift, and the fear of the one lapse that ends careers and lives never fully leaves me.

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Any time not spent working feels wasted to me — a slow afternoon, an unproductive evening, a lazy morning all carry a low guilt. I have lost the ability to value time that produces nothing, which means I can never fully rest in it.Even in the closest moments — with my partner, my children, the people I love most — my mind is half on work. I am physically present and mentally drafting an email, and the people in front of me can feel that I am not really there.Even when I am not working my mind is still at work. I cannot actually be present at home.I am reflexively the last one to leave — I stay late by default, long after the work needs it, because leaving while others remain feels like failing. The long hours have become an identity more than a necessity, and I cannot seem to just go home.I am technically on holiday. I am checking email hourly, available for calls, and monitoring for problems. Nobody in my family believes I am really away because they can see I am not.I am the friend who always cancels — the dinner, the trip, the standing plan — because work comes up at the last minute and I let it win every time. People have started to half-expect it, and a few have quietly stopped inviting me.

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