How do I carry the weight of harms I have to imagine?

You sit with a system that might cause harm you cannot fully see. You imagine the worst use, the cruelest user, the failure nobody has caught yet. This is the job. It is heavy, and it should be — a light mind here is a careless one. But notice what you are doing to yourself. You are treating an imagined harm as if it already happened, as if you were already guilty of it. That is not diligence. That is punishing yourself for crimes not yet committed, by anyone, including you. Here is what is actually yours: the next test you can run, the next constraint you can write, the next question you can ask before you ship. Choose that. Do it. Then stop — because imagining without end is not safety work. It is a story you tell yourself about how much you care.